
Rachel Brice doing her thang...
This is a repost of an entry that seems just about where I am today with dancing, with some adjustments. It was written in July, 2008 and still holds truth for me. The adjustments are that I AM teaching some students and I, at least, am having the time of my life. I can’t say that they are, but I can look back 5 years and see myself starting out on this incredible journey. It’s all the same for all of us, one foot in front of the other. I think the best thing I have received from this teaching is I have grown more patient with students. There was I a few years ago, and I remember the thrill and the frustration.
Sorry for the YELLING!! I was locked in some point and didn’t know how to get out!
Some of my friends know I am a belly dancer. I’ve been at it for about 5 years, and have only scratched the surface of all the different techniques. I spent months in classes learning routines, the Mizmar, Jasmine, Hagallah, etc…and I hated every moment. Well, not every moment, in the beginning it was new and untried and getting my body to conform to the different movements was awkward, frustrating and exhausting. And exciting for a few weeks. You have to ‘think’ in choreography. You have to be part of the group-think and movement.
You have to be a good Nazi.
You have to follow orders.
It took almost 4 years to finally break out of the Turkish routine of following other patterns and develop my own. (I had tremendous teachers…) It took that long to trust my body to respond in less awkward ways, and in fact, to break out automatically in dance.
NOW it’s routine. Sure, it’s inappropriate to do a shimmy in the fish department , or maybe it’s all that ice with dead-eyed trout and salmon watching, or to do breast lifts and breast shimmys when sitting drinking coffee while reading a book in a booth, or walking down Home Depot aisles and doing double hip drops, and alternating sides, but what you are doing is Vibrating with a latent sexual energy. For after all, belly dance is in essence, sex.
Ok…a lot of people deny this, but it figures. (and it took a cranky man to convince me of this…) Its roots are in childbirth movements, where hip gyrations and stomach flutters were designed to PUSH the baby out. And before birth, the body was strenghtened, the muscles and tissues, for the coming birth. And before that! It was dances of seduction, and besides the fun of what comes with THAt, it led many times to pregnancy.
In the Middle East, and Africa, girls as young as 4 were taught to belly dance…I have seen young girls here in this country. They take it very seriously, and can imitate the women around them with ease if not total grace.
(I got mad at the owner of the club I danced at the end of March, and stomped out. I haven’t danced really (except for a few parties) in 5 months.
Now I realize that I love dance more than I hate the owner. So back I go.)
I thought perhaps I would be back to square one, because this is the longest time, except one where I had a knee in a brace (knees go out the most for belly dancers…) for about 7 months….
But something has happened to my body, apparently a very independent organ from my brain. Recently, as I contemplated going back to August classes, (August is the dead zone here in the south) I decided to take the bull by the horns, drop that croissant from my teeth, and see what the old body could do. I was surprised.
Something has matured in my movement. My extensions are longer in my arms, the hips have a mind of their own, the hands are commanding and though I don’t have the wind or stamina I had before I stopped dancing, there was definitely something better happening.
I think what happened was two things. My body got a good rest. The muscle memory built up, and then my body was glad to get back to the routine it knew and was ‘fed’ by it.
Sure, my timing in choreographed movements is off, but that will come back. I am just pleased to be back in the game.
Mac the knife in NY, a friend with a webblog I have mentioned before (http://ropespringseternal.blogspot.com) wrote something that resonated to me deeply: What one does with who one is could be so important (in life).
I guess in some way, what I do (dance) and who I am came together in some way that I couldn’t deny anymore, though I tried.
Movement has been a tremendous influence in my life…it has kept depression at bay and channeling it into something that creates a form of beauty has made a lot of difference for me. It’s created self-esteem, confidence and a bit of arrogance. (and I am aware that arrogance has been a thorn in the foot of one man in particular…)
It has made me feel beautiful, whether I am or not. It doesn’t take prisoners, dance, it slaughters us all alike and reforms us from the ashes. It brings the essential sexual female to the front and gives her a platform to work her magical nature…at any age.
I have to create a class for some beginners, special friends that are eager to learn from my poor teaching. This is a great responsibility for me, and I have thought over it for a couple of days. I want their experience to be ‘better’ than mine. I want them to feel their innate sexuality, their allure from the first lesson. I want them to find their beautiful independent ability to be a powerful dancer, in mind and body, but I want most of all to stress that it doesn’t take years with the right mindset. It takes hours, a belief that you are a beautiful dancer, when freed up to be just that.
Every woman, regardless age and size, is a natural belly dancer.
A few figure 8’s, some basic shimmies, correct hands and arms, and a definite attitude, and we are all good to go!
Lady Nyo with a coin scarf tonight…
Tags: belly dancing, frozen fish eyes, frustration, shimmys, teaching and students.
November 2, 2009 at 4:19 am
These are the words that make me want to dance! I can see you walking in the aisles at Home Depot or “shimmying in the fish department”! LOL! Quite the visual, and yet gives the sense of the freedom you must feel. Why NOT shimmy in the fish department? Or roll your hips amongst the hardware and paint chips at Home Depot? Quite cool, I think.
November 2, 2009 at 2:06 pm
Well……movement is so natural, but we shun it…at least these more ‘involved’ movements of our bodies as exhibitionist. I think there is a line, but as a dancer,
“IF YOU DON’T USE IT….YOU WILL LOSE IT!”
I can’t think of anything more true than that. And the upside of it all is this: regardless of physical condition or weight, dancing belly dance…the beginning steps and movements will do remarkable things to the body….and the mind.
I knew a woman who had gone through cancer years ago…and she felt ….’undesirable’. There was nothing physically wrong with her, except a bad back….but that could have been helped too, if she would have followed through on the very gentle exercises I showed her. But she was convinced of something else, and that issue of desirability? Well, I can’t think of anything more ‘alluring’ than a woman dancing for her man.
As to depression, or what we have talked about as ’sadness’….the movements and thrill of dancing will take care of that fast.
I had a lot of reasons (I thought) for depression….what looked like acute pancreatic disease, diabetes, a terrible ‘relationship’ that had no rhyme or reason, some family problems…but concentrating on ’solutions’ there made no progress. Getting back to dancing ….and extending myself by taking on students…well…that made all the difference in me. Depression lifted and all the above came into focus and passed out of real concerns.
We can live our lives in fear and sorrow for mistakes, misjudgments, the past.
I am so glad these little words make you want to dance, Margie!! We don’t have to become elderly and wear purple before we find freedom.
Start to dance, move, Margie…as I think you already do…it’s all in the head, and only somewhat in the muscles…in the beginning…then..something funny happens: the body takes over….and the mind just watches!~
Love!!!